How It Felt to Not Be on BSB Cruise 2016...

...Absolutely devastating. Left out. Not where my soul wanted to be. However, I survived and I know there are many of us survivors out there and those who never experienced the greatness that is a Backstreet Boys cruise.

BSB fans who didn't go on BSB Cruise 2016, we will make it!

I will admit that while the cruise was starting to set sail in beautiful Barcelona, I was reminding myself of the reasons it was good I was not on the cruise. Basically, I was fooling myself. I tried to convince myself of the fact that I was being responsible with my money and saving, that there wasn't enough time to explore each special landmark and party with BSB, and that my body would thank me for not neglecting it with lack of sleep, constant standing, and the stress of a very aggressive crowd.

My fragile heart.

I still think these reasons are true, but my heart disagrees. My heart says that every penny spent and agonizing ache would have been worth it.

You don't love me?

I broke my own heart. I'm still trying to win her back, but she isn't having it. I told her that she will see Nick and AJ at WalkerStalker Con in Chicago soon. Even though it wins her over a little and her beat quickens at the thought, she just sighs and says that it's just not the same.

But...it's not the cruise.

Since I heard that BSB plans on having a cruise next year, I used that as a tactic to try to win my heart over saying that we wouldn't miss that one. It didn't work. She just rolled her eyes and said that it would be another one we'd miss. I don't like disappointing her and she blames it all on the affair I have with my practical mind. She asks why can't I listen to her more? I guess I spoiled her going on two BSB cruises because she doesn't want to have nothing to do with me unless she gets what she wants. I can't live without my heart, so I'll try to give her what she wants.

 

In the meantime, I have to hear about all the BSB moments she missed, the times she could have spent with her BSB family in Europe, and going to Italy for the first time...which she constantly reminds me is where she always wanted to go. She sinks when she thinks of the acoustic concert she missed where rare songs were performed by her Boys. Youtube videos just aren't the same. She wanted to feel that magic she felt those last two times. 

I'll probably have to endure her moping around for awhile. Maybe I'll try bringing the nostalgia back with some video of our time together on the last two cruises. My guess is she'll want to wallow in her sorrow some more and keep searching for video on the one she missed. I tell her that she can't be at every BSB cruise and event, but her stubbornness doesn't take that statement well.

My heart and I are still in disagreement, but she'll heal. I'm more worried about my ovaries. They just can't get over how they missed seeing Nick Carter during Leather and Lace 50 Shades Night.