Things Have Been Hard Lately

Things have been really bad and hard lately, but I’m trying to keep myself busy and my mind off of things. My mom has been in the hospital since Sunday night. She suffered from another heart attack and her breathing worsened while still using oxygen. They ended up doing an angiogram and put a stent in her heart. I’ve been visiting her when I can because I still have to work and stuff. My work would allow me to visit, but it’s so hard to see her ill and I hate hospitals and environments like that. Anyway, she’s still in the hospital and I’m hoping she’ll be able to get out of the hospital by Sunday. I think they have her on a lot of medicine and she seems loopy from it. I was so scared that this would have been the end. We have been living with her health problems for years now and it’s hard everyday to have to see her illness. I feel so bad for her and the situation in itself. I feel hopeless about the whole thing. Sometimes I feel like I can’t do some things I want to do because I have to take care of her. Plus, my dad is also ill and it’s just too much sometimes. If you guys could just keep my family and me in your prayers.

During all of this hardship, my birthday was this week. I’m the big 3-0 now. I couldn’t really celebrate it because of all the crap going on either. Oh well, just another birthday. I’m going to keep acting like a teenager though lol.

I’ve been getting worried too because the cruise is next month and with all this going on, I kind of feel guilty about planning to go. I can’t lose out on all that money and I promised myself I wouldn’t let all of our problems stop me from pursuing my dreams and doing things. I seen that the guys released some themes to choose from. I picked the neon night because that was one of my ideas and the cowboy and Indians one. They all are good choices though.

I really hope things get fairly back to normal before that cruise time comes. It says in the Bible that God doesn’t give us anything we can’t handle. Well, God must think I’m a badass. I feel overwhelmed with everything.